This I 'Promise' You

Chapter 8 : A fool, i suppose

A promise is still a promise. How would you feel if someone breaks a promise? Is it ever easy to just forgive and forget? I'm just holding my breath, and bear everything i could. I never thought that someone like you will do those things that you did to me, it's not easy to carry the pain everywhere i go. But i'm still doing it. And i'm pretty sure no one knows that i'm still hurt, because I never show it. I never do, especially when i'm with people. Fortunately, i'm doing okay now. It gets better everyday, and i feel relieved now.

Sometimes i do wonder how he's doing, but i'm constantly avoiding the feeling. Because i don't want to wonder, i don't want to think about it. I don't want to, seriously. It just comes, especially when i'm doing something that remembers me of him. I never thought that the last time was actually the last time, and never thought the last kiss in front my house was actually the last kiss. I miss him, everyday. But why do i keep missing an asshole? You know, i shouldn't miss the asshole who broke me apart right? Right, i shouldn't and i shouldn't have a reason to.

Okay you might think i'm not over this guy after reading above, but i'm totally moving on. Trust me, it's just that sometimes it makes me feel better to type what i'm feeling. At least, what i was feeling. Anyway, i have long journey ahead and i'm hoping for a good life. Pray for me, thanks.